Oh, what would I do without my friends....

Song of the moment: No Such Thing by John Mayer

Care to listen to this song?

My friends are so great. I was just talking to Jamie about some of my problems, and he quickly solved them right away. I won't get into further detail with what we were talking about, since it'll probably get in me in some trouble with some of the people that read my journal, but you get the idea. Without my friends, I don't know how I'm going to survive this dog-eat-dog world. Gosh.


Melinda is a great friend, I love that girl. I hung out with her today, and she stuck by me while I was shopping for a halloween costume. She even let me borrow ten dollars (her only money) so I could have enough money for my cloak, and she didn't even buy anything for herself. I love how self-less she can be.


Ashley is also a great friend, I love her. She and I understansd each other in multiple levels, and it's just great to talk to someone that you can fully connect with. And let me tell you, she and I connect it the WIERDEST ways, you cannot even begin to comprehend as to how much similar we are to each other.


Stephanie is one of the sweetest and most understanding friends that I have. She kind of has this protective outer-layer, but once you really get to know her, she's really very sweet. She and Ashley are the only ones that really understand me, and I love the fact how Stephanie really listens and cares. Melinda listens too, but she usually does most of the talking when we hang out.


Lorraine is just out there. She's a good friend, but I think she and I are starting to grow apart. We don't really connect in a more emotional basis, our friendship is more childish and "fun". It's hard for me to talk to her about my problems, because I'm scared that she's going to say something like, "Oh, that's stupid... blah blah". She's just fun to hang out with, but it's really hard for me to picture the two of us growing old together.


Isaac.... I love Isaac. He and I don't talk that much anymore, and I never get to see much of his Japanese/black ass (lol), but he's really great. He understood what I was going through when I was with *cough*Brent*cough*, and he's just.... oh God, he's just a great person. I really wish he and I could hang out more often. =(


ROBIN, that stupid whore. She's one of my oldest friends here in California, and she's just fucking crazy. I love her like a sister, even though go to different schools and we hardly ever hang out. I should go call her.


I remember when Erin and I were really close. She was also like a sister to me, no doubt. But then you know, she ends up going to college and we see a lot LESS of each other, and we eventually kind of stop talking to each other. But yeah, she's another great person that is and always will be there for me, even if I call her 5 years from now after not talking to her for.... five years. She was my closest girl-friend in the whole whacked-out bemani scene, and I would have trusted her with any of my secrets. If only we lived in the same city, she probably would have ended up being one of my best all-time friends.


Ray. Ray, oh Ray was Ray a great friend. He's another one of my old team mates from my old (broken down?) team, A.S.S. He goes to Sac State and he lives all the way up in Vallejo, but I just remember talking to him like every day online. He's one of those people that make you go "Yay!" everytime they goes online, because you're just so damn excited to talk to them. I wasn't as close with him as I was with Erin, but man, I would honestly trust him with my life. He was like a big brother to me.


Adam, oh sweet dear Adam. This kid and I go waaaaaay back. I remember when I first gave him advice on LOVE, even though at the time, I absolutely had no idea what it really felt like. I've talked to him on the phone a few times, but most of our more meaningful conversations take place online. He just cares so much for his friends, and he makes you feel so special... it's great. I help him with his problems, he helps me with mine, and is just completely sweet and understanding! Now that's what I call a great friendship. =)


Anthony. A friendship that was ruined by love. Or was it lust? I don't know, I just remember breaking his heart.... God, I'm awful. He and I lasted for no longer than a day, and that's only because I said "yes" to him to prevent him from getting his feelings hurt. In the end, I broke it off before the lie would live any longer, and we haven't really talked much since. But before that, boy.... i felt so close to him. It seriously felt like a brother-sister relationship (hence my personal awkardness), and I just had that feeling that I had to protect him from emotional harm. Even though he's older than me, I just felt like I had to protect him (long story). But in the end... it was I who ended up harming him. Gosh.. I'm going to hell. =(



But yeah, back to my point... I'm so lucky to have such great friends. All I really have to do is call one of these great people up, and they'll listen to my problems: big or small. I really would die of loneliness if it wasn't for my friends. My eyes begin to water as I think about the times when I felt alone and helpless, as a friend just quickly swoops me out and cheers me up. Sometimes, I love my friends more than my family... and that's deep.


I will never forget my friends. Years from now, I bet you I can still name EVERYONE on this list, plus more that I haven't mentioned. All of my friends have made such an impact on me, and I owe them so much. The greatest thing for me is to just have someone there to talk to and not feel as if he/she is bored from my "blabbering". The perfect friend is someone that never gives up on you, and allows you to spill out your emotions, even if it takes hours. Most (if not all) of these people fit that quota, which just makes me appreciate them even more.